I'm faced with a strange Interlude. These days, I'm happy/assured/sad/nervous/cheerful. It's just the time. Maybe just the situation. Life is tough. I had always waited for such decisive days. Now that they're here, it's overwhelming. I think I stress too much. Or maybe too little. Maybe I should take a break. Or work even more. Smile too much or smile too little. Keep quiet and suffer silently or let my life be an open book. I need to plan. Or stop planning and actually start working. I need to cry. To smile. To accept things the way they are and make the best of it instead of always assuming the worst. I know my time will come. Or be so damn competitive that no one else stands a chance. Killer edge or
Miss Congeniality? I get hurt too much and talk about it too little. Maybe it's the other way round. I should really catch up with all my friends. Be honest with my family. Realistically plan my life. Be more communicative and expressive. Stop complaining about being tired. It's okay to defer some plans for a year. It's okay to let go, to let others be happy, to accept the most deserving or assiduous might not always be the recipient. It's okay coz I truly believe in Karma. Maybe, I should stop being so idealistic and be ruthless for once. Or maybe, the way I am is just fine considering I've been like this till now, and it's helped me till now. The only thing hurts is to let my parents down. I know they believe in me. All parents do. They look at their child with rose tinted glasses. Or maybe, they always know and just create an illusion to boost the child. I should study. Work. Read. Become Intelligent. Shop. Fall in love. Maybe this post is too personal to share. Maybe, I shouldn't let it be a draft. I guess it's time to be Extraordinary. Selfish. Hardworking. Independent. Emotionally Strong. Loving. Stable. Wise. Need to figure it out, all too soon.
Miss Congeniality? I get hurt too much and talk about it too little. Maybe it's the other way round. I should really catch up with all my friends. Be honest with my family. Realistically plan my life. Be more communicative and expressive. Stop complaining about being tired. It's okay to defer some plans for a year. It's okay to let go, to let others be happy, to accept the most deserving or assiduous might not always be the recipient. It's okay coz I truly believe in Karma. Maybe, I should stop being so idealistic and be ruthless for once. Or maybe, the way I am is just fine considering I've been like this till now, and it's helped me till now. The only thing hurts is to let my parents down. I know they believe in me. All parents do. They look at their child with rose tinted glasses. Or maybe, they always know and just create an illusion to boost the child. I should study. Work. Read. Become Intelligent. Shop. Fall in love. Maybe this post is too personal to share. Maybe, I shouldn't let it be a draft. I guess it's time to be Extraordinary. Selfish. Hardworking. Independent. Emotionally Strong. Loving. Stable. Wise. Need to figure it out, all too soon.
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